Five Months

It's been five months today ...
In those five months we've experienced the lowest of lows, the saddest of sads, the happiest of happies, and every emotion in between.
In five months I've:

• Learned of a strength I didn't know I possessed
• Experienced a panic attack for the first time
• Cried more than I thought humanly possible
• Missed him more the past 3 or 4 weeks than I thought possible
• Figured out the new evening times

BUT in five months I've:

• Stopped counting weeks (about 3 or 4 weeks ago) ... I remember counting days, then weeks ... now I just thought about it today, it's 5 months today.
• Watched NCIS, Castle, and a few other shows that have violence in them (I was frightened to do that before)
• Put on about 6,000 miles on my car ... all by myself
• Lost almost 40 pounds (in a healthy way)

AND in five months I've:

• Been amazed at the friends who have been there at every turn
• Been overwhelmed by the generosity of people ... because they can
• Been blessed with an abundance of help, love, cards and prayers
• Been shocked that "I'm ok" ... not great, sometimes good, but truly OK
• Been challenged by God's "plan" ... for He does have a plan for me, plans to prosper and not harm

AND in five months I've had you, my blog readers, lifting me up in prayer, sending me messages of support, and truly blessing me in ways I never dreamed of.  SOOOOOOOOOO blog readers ... what would you like to see on this page, this site? DO you have questions? Do you have thoughts that could spur me to write? Do you have some blog ideas for me? I love blogging, but not sure where this is going.

Here's some ideas I have ...

• Wedding NEWSSSSSSSSSSSS ... my son married his beautiful, stunning, best friend ... and she is truly a perfect fit
• Intention ... with intention we included Doug in the celebrations
• Stages of grief ... not really a stage, more of a journey up a mountain road, filled with switchbacks
• Quilting anyone?

Leave a comment or two ... let me know what you think.

Someone said on Doug's birthday, can you imagine your first birthday party in heaven. Wow, thank you Leslie. But I've also thought, can you imagine how crazy Doug must be making God ... can't you hear him saying, "I can fix that!" Missing you sweet love of mine ...

Until soon,
Vic