A New Normal

Oh goodness ... one never knows the road set before us, and I certainly never thought I'd be on this path. My faithful readers (yes, all four of you readers) my goal of this blog, is perhaps journal like, filled with quilting, fun, kids, and life. Life isn't always quarter inch seams and family success. As you all know, our hearts took a screeching halt two weeks ago tomorrow. My kind and sweet husband died of a tragic accident. A dear friend wrote a note to my kids and described the past weeks very poignantly, "The moment that time stood still." That moment was more than a week and now we begin a new moment.

In that moment, when Doug reached for Jesus' hand, we, my kids and I, began our own kind of hell. The emotions of disbelief, anger, and denial ran smack dab into sadness, and the inability to understand the overwhelming generosity of a community who surrounded us and held us at our weakest moments. When I've spoke with others who have lost loved ones, for me a spouse, I would say, "I can only imagine ... " Wrong, I never imagined "this"!

Words cannot begin to express the gratitude and appreciation that we have for whatever deed you rendered to our family. From those first horrible minutes to offers of help and assistance in the future ... every step of the way we have felt your love, friendship, guidance and support. We have had kitchen fairies, tissue holders, water fetchers, food bearers, crying buddies, dog washers, dog walkers and runners, gutter cleaners, garden hoers, idle chatters, hug givers and support to stand and walk. How can we ever thank you ... each and every one of you for support, cards, gifts, flowers and food. My daughter said we must pay it forward in whatever small and minute way we can. So pay it forward we will try.

Until soon,
vic